Tired

Hi again

So I have this new job which I’m not enjoying and wish it could be over already. I know I should be grateful that I am employed but call centre work is just not for me.

I have 5 weeks left at this job before my contract expires and then I’m on the job hunt again. Hope I get something satisfying and well paying.

Two weeks ago I went into a very bad low and took almost a week ff from work. That’s when I reached out to my previous therapist and I am now seeing her for a definite period of four months once a week.

I’ve only seen her twice so far but it has been really good for me. I’m starting to feel so much better. I can’t shake the darkness that looms in the background yet but I’m hoping it will dissipate with time.

Oh! Almost forgot. I’m kinda really excited cause its my birthday on Saturday. I’m turning 30 so it’s a big one. Gonna party hard!!! Wish you could all come 🙂

Gotta go now!

Ciao!

 

 

 

 

No pay day

So my world is topsy turvy today. Our bosses decided to play with our livelihoods and not pay us. I had given my last money to my sister this morning for bus fare and thought I’g be ok since it’s pay day. Alas when I went to the petrol station this morning to draw money, the ATM was offline. I decided I would wait an hour, wake up my neighbour and ask him to take me to the next closes one, but in the mean time I could have some biltong(beef jerky) and cigs to keep me occupied. When they swiped my card it got declined, TWICE!!! DAMN SUCKS!!!!

Are YOU a mental health blogger or open about your mental illness?

Our Lived Experience

Blahpolar Diaries is one of our resident authors at Our Lived Experience and she’s also quite talented in other areas like design and probably eating chillipoppers (Jalapeno peppers stuffed with Feta cheese and then deep fried). The latter is a guess but I wouldn’t be surprised.

She designed a beautiful badge for bloggers associated with OLE (check our blogroll on the right hand side of the screen). If you’re open about your illness and write about it, we’d love to hear from you!

We aim to create a network of bloggers where we can:

• Examine issues relating to a particular group of people (Bipolar Disorder, Depression, OCD, Borderline Personality Disorder etc.)
• Develop into a national network that would provide a basis for mutual support (which will enable sharing of ideas and experiences)
• Work toward raising awareness, education and thereby de-stigmatizing mental illness in our country

We welcome you to share who you are with…

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Relating Feelings & Symptoms to Your Doctor

bi[polar] curious

I’ve been writing, lately (though not here), about the situation surrounding my first hospitalization.

At the beginning of this year I requested my file from Fairfax hospital because I was having trouble pinpointing when I was diagnosed. Their notes state that their idea that I had bipolar disorder was a guess (at best) because they really had no evidence beyond the depression I had been having.

But there was evidence, plenty of it. The problem was that I couldn’t convey the feelings I was having, and, being young, I had no idea which feelings were normal and which weren’t.

So instead of telling the doctors about these things, about feeling like there was electricity pulsing through my veins sometimes, about random and voilent sounding outbursts, about the slough of days where I couldn’t sleep, I kept that all to myself. I didn’t realize that these things were even related…

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Tackling BIPOLAR CARE

Our Lived Experience

Despite the fact that more than one million South Africans have been diagnosed with bipolar disorder, it is still a misunderstood and often stigmatised chronic illness. To raise awareness about the disorder, the South African Depression and Anxiety Group (Sadag) has ‘declared’ 26 May as Bipolar Awareness Day in an effort to create greater awareness about the disorder.
Bipolar is a severe mood disorder— it not only causes unusual shifts in mood, energy and activity levels, but also the ability to carry out day-to-day tasks, to have relationships or perform at work or at school. It can result in substance abuse issues, financial setbacks, even suicide. People with bipolar disorder experience unusually intense emotional
ii A long period of feeling ‘high’, or an overly happy or outgoing mood II Extremely irritable mood, agitation, feeling ‘jumpy’ or ‘wired’. II Talking very fast, jumping from one idea to another, having racing thoughts…

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Can you donate eggs if you are bipolar

Our Lived Experience

This blog post has nothing to do with chickens. I’ll admit I’d never thought about this issue before I stumbled upon the article that follows. Anyway, I wondered what you guys think of the whole thing? Bear in mind that most clinics around the world have the same guidelines in place, baby2mom Egg Donation Agency is a South African one.

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