Farewell

No, don’t worry, I am not leaving wordpress. Today I am saying farewell to my old job. A place I could almost call home for the last year and a half. I’ve had many good and bad days here which is why it feels like I am leaving family in a way. We were a pretty close knit group and knew most of each others business as we were so few people. There were days I cried at work and was comforted by my colleagues, days where there were thunder clouds hovering above my head and they knew well enough to leave me alone and then there were the good times when we all laughed together. So I will miss this crazy place and the people I got to get to know here.

My new job is only a contract position till the end of December and the excitement of this new adventure is waning and the fear of the unknown is gripping ever tighter like a noose around my neck. Yesterday I had this strong wave of depression that crashed over me but that had more to do with the fact that I feel alone and like no-one understands me. This because my sister had said things to the effect that it was simply mind over matter and basically discounted my fears at the thought of my new job. Am I not justified to feel fear? She knows my history of working in a call centre but I guess she will never understand and I can’t exactly blame her. To her I guess I’m just supposed to get over it already.

I really wish I could speak to someone about how I feel. But how do I ask my new employer time off when I’ve yet to begin really.

Anyway, today I will spend my last day at my old workplace and make the best of it. I won’t be able to post as often as I would like to from now on since I won’t have as much fee time but I will do my best to keep you all up to date on what’s going on my my crazy world.